As I write my second installment for The SF Marathon blog, an article was published recently in The New York Times entitled Running as Therapy. In summary, the author writes about how distance running helped her through some of the most difficult experiences. The article is something that I can totally relate to.
Besides struggling with obesity, high blood pressure and diabetes, I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression in my early twenties. I rarely disclose this because I fear that people will judge me. Life is sometimes not fair. The depression was different than the blues. I went through some rough periods where I felt that I could not lift my head to see the light. I battled with self-doubt, self-loathing and low self-esteem. I wanted to be alone. It hurt to be around my friends. At my lowest point, I contemplated ending my life because my spirit was so broken.
I was prescribed antidepressant medications such as Wellbutrin and Luvox in addition to psychotherapy. Though the treatment helped manage my depression symptoms, I still felt a fog of sadness that I couldn’t get out of. I struggled to find happiness and purpose. I had the support of family and friends but it wasn’t something that they could take away. It was something I had to work out on my own.
On November 12, 2012, I signed up to run the first half of The 2013 San Francisco Marathon. It was the next item to check off on my list of goals on my weight loss journey. I did not think it would change me. I had doubts that I could even complete the race since it is a challenging course.
It was […]